What is the best gift you received and who gave you that gift?

@SheriffNorthman gave me such a wonderful birthday gift this year. He took me for a few nights on the town in New York City, complete with a trip to a broadway show and this HUGE bookstore. It was so thoughtful, and so much fun!

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Between the Sheets

What have I gotten myself into?

The thought crosses my mind nearly every waking hour, because really, what else am I supposed to think about?

Eric's been chasing me since the moment we met. He never bothered to hide his lust for me, no matter how I denied mine for him. I've told him no for as long as I can remember, 'till recently. This trip... I don't know, something's changed. Maybe it's the dates he's taken on, or maybe it's how he lets me see another side of him. A caring side that I wouldn't have expected from Eric Northman that speaks to somethin' inside me, no matter how silly that sounds. He's not a bad man, not a bad vampire. He cares for people, and has his own morals, even if they don't exactly match up with mine.

Maybe seein' that allowed me to see other possibilities for us. Maybe that's what finally got me to stop keepin' him at an arm's length. Maybe it's just that I couldn't keep my hands off him any longer.

It's not like we've... you know, done it. It started off with just kissing, and that led to, well, more, like I guess I should've expected. I let him bite me... twice. So far. So many of our nights seem to end up in our bed, but it's not like that's all it is.

He's taken me out, shown me around, shown that he really knows me from the different things we've done together. I couldn't have asked for better dates. Or better endings to them. Dear Lord, it does not get better than that...

But what have I really gotten myself into? This is Eric Northman. Eric Northman! He's pretty much the guy parents warn their daughters to stay away from. He'll never be happy with just one woman, at least... I don't think, not just me. Maybe other girls are content with just sex, but it's not just that either. We're important to each other. There are feelings involved, and... I don't know that I won't get invested with something.

What if I start wantin' something I can't have? Because, let's face it. I might be Eric's now, but that doesn't really make him mine...

Wedding Dress Shopping

Tuesday, I went with JoAnna, Lacey, Nando, and Claude (yes, Caude) to go to some fancy wedding dress store to pick out a dress for Jo. She's getting married pretty soon, I think, to her Were fiancée, Lucian. They're a really cute couple, and they deserve all the happiness that's ahead of them.

Claude even came in for the occasion, which was awful nice of him, but he seems to love all shopping, even if it isn't for him. He was real nice to me the whole time, which was sort of surprisin'. He's always calling me "cousin," but I guess it's just a quirk of his. I've seen surfers and skaters and those sorts do that on tv sometimes, so I'm guessing it's like that. I'll have to ask him about it sometime, though, since he only does it with me. He's a pretty strange guy, but he was really nice to me. I kind of hope to see more of him. There's something about him that's almost... well, almost comforting to be around. I don't know why.

JoAnna found the most beautiful dress! She's going to look like an elegant queen on her wedding day. I wonder if she'll invite me. Either way, it was beautiful. Nando found it for her. He seems to have a thing for shopping too, and a thing for Claude.

Lacey tried on some dresses too, but I wasn't sure why. Her dress-trying-on prompted Claude to practically force me into a wedding dress, which was kind of... I'm not sure...

Every little girl dreams of her wedding day, I think. I knew from the time I was old enough to understand these things that the odds were against me for that sort of thing. I can't even go on a date with a man without getting frustrated with the thoughts goin' through his head, not to mention pretty offended.

Then vampires were suddenly real, and I was datin' Bill. Bill talked about marriage sometimes. It seemed like I might just get that dream after all, but then he didn't turn out to be quite the man I thought he was.

Now I'm pretty sure I'm datin' Eric, and I really don't think he's the marryin' type. He's definitely not the monogamous type, and anyway, I guess those vows would be pretty silly.

"Do you swear to forsake others so long as you both shall live?"
"Well, one of us isn't alive, so..."

Eric says I think too much. Maybe I do. Even so, it was a fun night with friends tryin' on dresses way outside my price range. Not a bad way to spend some time.

The Fourth [Third] Date

Eric took me on another date tonight. It was so much fun. We went to a book store, where we spent a while shopping around. It was so big! Literally miles of books! Eric got me a gift certificate to it as part of my birthday present, so I spent some of that. I'll have reading forever!

From there, I was really hungry after all that walking, so he took me to a deli.

I'd never been to a deli before, but Good Lord, the food was delicious! I got a corned beef sandwich, a potato knish, and some half sour pickles. I might have to stop at another deli before we leave the city to see if they're all this good!

After I ate and Eric educated me on how a vampire could taste human food through blood, we went back to the hotel. He carried me on his back while he ran, which was a little terrifyin', honestly.

Once we got there, things got a little... heated. We kissed for a while, but when it started to go farther, I had to stop him. I mean, it was almost dawn, but really, when things start to get like that, I get nervous. The whole thing scares me on a few levels. He went back to his room, since it really was almost dawn, but I'm not sure if he's mad, and I'm even less sure of what to do about the whole thing. I want him, but... what if I'm makin' a mistake?

A Third [Second] Date

Well, I'm back in New York. Ain't that the weirdest thing. I haven't been to work in forever. I don't know what I'm gonna do about that, but I figure, one problem at a time, and I'm definitely dealin' with some other stuff right now.

Eric took me on a third date. Well, he insists it was the third, but it's really the second. He counts makin' out in my hotel room last night as our second. That's... complicated. I'm so attracted to him. Who wouldn't be? It's hard to keep my hands off him, but at the same time, he's so intimidating. Almost scary. He's... well, he's no Bill, and Bill was my first. I feel so unsure around him, but at the same time, who can help but want him?

I had to stop him from doing anything I wasn't ready to, but he was really good about that. He even stayed until I fell asleep. He's a good cuddler, I'll give him that.

For our date, he took me to see Wicked. That was amazin'! We both loved the show, I think. Eric was talkin' about sendin' one of the munchkins home to Dave, though I can't for the life of me imagine why.

Still, it was all so excitin'! I'd never been to any kind of show before, and Broadway... Wow. Eric called my excitement adorable, but I couldn't help it! It was a great birthday present.

Really, the whole present was the best I've ever gotten. It made up for havin' a real quiet birthday, not that I mind quiet when the alternative lately seems to be rescuin' people or blowin' stuff up. Though, speakin' of blowin' up, I have to wonder if Bianca knows about all these dates. I still think she'll try to kill me one day. I'm kind of terrified.

I haven't heard from Bill since our date. I guess he took my, "Don't call me until you're done with this database business," request seriously. It's for the best, I guess, when I seem to be gettin' involved with Eric romantically, whether I want to or not.

The thing is, I think I want to. He's so different from what I expected. He's really thoughtful to me. Caring, almost, and almost selfless. I never thought I'd use those words to describe him. He says I'm important to him. I guess what I'm saying is, he's pretty important to me too.

My First Trip to New York

I’ve never seen so much traffic in my life!

I can’t believe how busy this place is!

…Is that who I think it is?

So many people, so many thoughts. I’m shieldin’ real hard to try and keep ‘em all out.